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i've come to the realization this week that "when it rains, it pours"
just when things seem like they are looking up, it never fails...."WHAM" i get smacked with something else, such as i found out this last week that my roomate and i have to sign a new lease (for a year) on our aptment or move out by aug. catch is the day my roomate told me this he also informed me the he was gonna be moving back home for a while to save some money....so now i have to find a roomie in the next week or so or move out.....this is bullshit.#2 i'm driving my happy ass to work a few days ago and my truck frigging dies on me....more bullshit....and finally the worst thing of all, my sis and her boyfriend broke up and i found out that one of my mngrs at work wants to date her....and she seems interested...and he is the scum of the earth. and i have tied to tell her and she is being stupid...he is the biggest asshole on the new world and yet "he listens".....yeha enough to make her trust him so he can get in her pants.....i swear to god....i am so irate right now i wanna beat his ass so bad...
so my life is going haywire and i don't knwo what the hell i'm supposed to do or where i'm supposed to go from here...i just wanna be happy and content for once...that's all too much to ask? apparently so.

well, it's a new year, and i figured i should get it started of right... with a late post...ok firt off, happy birthday jenny!!!! she's 17,wow. congrats jen :)
ok i have been pondering a few things about life in general lately and i have come to the conclusion that in all of life's choices ,the actual choice you make (be it wrong or right) shouldn't be the main focus, although they are obviously going to have an effect on the situation,i have lived my life afraid of making a wrong choice,which in turn,kept me from even approaching certain situations whicn in turn is a failure in itself (in my humble opinion)i have begun to realize (much to my pleasure) that there is no "right" car, or "right" job or "right" way to go about life (other than doing unto other as you would have them do to you which pretty much covers all bases) the only reason people feel guilty about certain choices is because someone else is frowning upon that decision because it's not what they would have done...which brings me to this point, wrong decisions are not bad things, yes they are irritating and often times they have the tendency to slow us down.
i have begun to see bad decisions as a catalyst for greater things, and history has proven this as well, we cannot make advancements anywhere in life without mistakes, how many trials and errors do scientists have to go through to get a certain experiment to resolve as expected, and knowing this, why do we fret over bad decisions? because society today has given us an idea of "the correct way to be"
i personally have had enough of being concerned if i make the wrong decision,i have resolved to say that if i make a wrong decision i will embrace it and learn from it.
that's my two cents for the day,

another thought, have you ever been almost sure about something but there was just that sliver of doubt that kept you from going for it? hmm.... guess i have a choice to make.....

hey to whoever reads this,
my post for this six months...
been having a great time, my job has required me to go on a trip, staying in fulton ms (about 2 hours away from starkville)and work in hamilton alabama,which is fun the company is paying for hotel and food so that's great, been eating steak at least 3 times a week.
also, i've gotten hit on 2 different times within the first week...that felt nice.
ok i feel a raving rampage commin on...
i would love to find a chick to have a good strong longlasting relationshi with, you know, the kind where i could treat her right ,send her flowers for no reason at all, and just have a good time with, but is that possible? no, there are plenty of girls here but (and this is gonna sound bad and possibly pretty arrogant but god knows it's true) none of em are worth the time and effort...it's really sad, what is it with them? grr,
it's really rather depressing.
k that part is over with, all in all i'm pretty happy i guess, i've had a blast the past few weeks, been nice to get away from home, needed the vacation,gotten to know some of my co-workers a bit better, they are a trip.
ok so i'm pretty much spent as far as the whole posting is concerned.

song:To Be With You - Mr. Big

well it's been a while but hey at least i'm posting right?
ok so alot has changed since i posted,for one i am no longer a gateway tech but now i just support microsoft windows XPservice pack 2, which is kickass because i have basically gone from doing a heck of a lot to almost nothing,i am geting my long awaited guitar within the nezxt 3 weeks (which that story will come a bit later)
k so this week we have been training to work on the microsoft service pack, and it's been from 7am to 3:30 pm every day,well one day we were playing this jacked up version of jeopardy in which our trainer would read us some technobabble and we would have to respond with the correct question,(side note i'vegotten to know this dude named austin who is funny as hell in a bucket (deena will get it) and i had asked him when i walked in the door how it was going to which he responded "i wanna go the @*&# home dude" and he continued about every 30 mins with this trend of expressing his opinion that we obviously weren't there for any real reason and we should just go home where his time would be better of spent in the bed)
and finally the trainer asked a question and austin (who was on my team) raised his hand first and the teachere said "yes austin?" and he replied in the standard jeopardy format "what is CAN WE GO HOME NOW?" and i lost it and so did half the class, while the trainer just shook her head. and there have been several diff times stuff like that has happend...oh the fun.
ok so now is later and i'll tell you about the guitar, my dad matt and i went to memphis for the day saturday to find a guitar,which i did an ibanez rg320qs (for those of you who care it looks like the ibanez rg320fm except it is a quilted top instead of flamed maple)anyway a few things about the trip,
#1.i had slept 8 hours of the prev 72
#2.people are stupid
#3.i was giddy as hell over the new prospect of a guitar
as for #1 and 2 i'll cover them in this story which i will give the abridged version,basicaly we left the house at around 6:30 am
drove 2.5 hours to memphis and by the time we got there we were starving, we pull into a mcdonalds and order our food and wait, ....and wait.....and wait...now it takwes alot for my dad to say anything about this type of stuff because he doesn't like to cause trouble but he did say something (politely i might add) and the lady apologized and we finally got our food 3 mins later, well the hashbrowns weren't cooked, the biscuits weren't golden brown but they were white, and my sprite came out purple, which at that time i was pissed at having to wait and hyped on a dose of no-doze) and i let out a few expletives at which matt just laughed,
well we finished out sucky meal and i have enough of my mom in me that unlike my dad i am not passive agressive but more,slyly agressive, i didn't drink the sprite for obvious reasons and before we left i left the tray on the table and poured that purple sprite out in it....yes i admit it was an asshole of a thing to do but i have never treated any customer of mine like they did us (they were very rude) but some one got a wet lap or a mess to clean up that day...

okay , i probably shouldn't even put this in here because it is inappropriate but i felt it was worthy of mention because it gave the three of us a good 15 minute laugh, we were driving through memphis and pulled into a neighborhood that was oddly and inappropriatly name "Morning Wood" and that's all i hvae to say,
(sorry if i offended anyone)

ok onto quotes

(said VERY loudly when the lady at mcdonalds was calling out orders for pickup in a verry slurred and lazy manner)
Matt- "you know what i like when people speak? Enunciation!"

ok the next one takes a little setting up ,matt,dad and i had gotten onto the topic of sex and honeymoons etc., joking around (adult like NOT dirty etc) and dad made the comment (matt is jessi (my sister's bf)"now i wouldn't normally talk like this around matt,...but i like matt, ::shooting a glance at matt:: and i still have a shotgun"
k so that's basically it...

My #1 result for the SelectSmart.com selector, Who's Your Favorite Guitarist?, is Steve Vai

My life is rated R.
What is your life rated?

My #1 result for the SelectSmart.com selector, What type of musician are you?, is an electric guitar

My #1 result for the SelectSmart.com selector, What kind of dragon are you?, is Inferno Dragon (fire element)

My #1 result for the SelectSmart.com selector, Element Focus, is Fire

sorry people but i am at work for 12 hours today and i'm getting uber bored...

ok, here's my new "poast" i have been putting it of using the excuse that i "don't have the extra time"(which everyone knows that a farce...i have plenty of time...katy and deena are both aware of that...the fact of the matter is that i''ve just been a bum...) but that is ok...

So here's what's new, 1st of all,the team swap that i bitched so emphatically about did not take place, i guess when the whole team put in requests for transfers they(managment) kinda got a clue...

Secondly i got some of the best news i've had in a while, my coach (graham) told me that witin a couple of months we will no longer be troubleshooting gateway systems,we will be working for microsoft on windows XP only...i couldn't be happier.not only that but we have to train, that means 2 weeks of getting paid for sitting on my butt and doing basically nothing,

ok another thing im stoked about, jesse and i just bought 500 clay poker chips on ebay...how awesome is that? we are going to start hosting a weekly or bi-weekly poker game , so much fun,

quick observation...has anyone else noticed that john kerry can't seem to make a decision on where he stands on anything? just a thought...

by the way i hate taxes....my check was around $680 and wanna know how much i saw of it? $505 that is awful in my opinion... that is around 14 hours of my hard work...disheartning really

ok i'm going to end this post on a happy note, i have a little cousin natanya who is about 2 years old and the cutest thing in the world who lives with my parents, she makes me smile anytime i go over to mom and dad's, i went over there today and i was laying in the florr with my eyes closed and suddenly i feel her bounce onto my stomach and start pounding on my chest saying "wake up boy!" also she was being ugly at daycare today and scratched a little boy because she wanted his swing, and also was being defiant to jessi (my sis) so when she got home mom told her she was going to get a spanking, so i was talking to her a couple of seconds later and mom was walking back to her room and i told natanya to do someting , and she turns around,shrugs he sholder and said "chway i can't , i have to go geet a spanking." it was adorable and if it had been me i don't know if i could have carried through with the said punishment.
anyway that's my post,

song of the day: "the leper affinity" by opeth

been a while i know...
ok so my week has been a ridiculous pain in the @$$ at work,first off,they have decided to screw my team over by switching my coach to a diff team,which i (as well as the rest of the team) am VERY pissed about , then we get the news that a coach named lavell (a jerk if i've ever met one) is taking over our team as our new coach, that's friggin great #1 he's a complete and utter asshole #2 he's racist #3 i would really like to bash his head in with a rubber mallet...ok so maybe not but he is patronizing, which i hate more than ANYTHING else...
THEN later that night i find out we are no longer allowed to go on the internet at work (at least no sites that are not work related) WHAT IN THE NAME OF BUDDAH? so now i have no escape from the bumbling idiots that callin because they have no sound and are too stupid to realize they have their spoeakers unplugged or their vol knob turned down,or the people who call in because they've broken their cupholder (a.k.a. cdrom drive tray) or they've sucked the keys off their laptop keyboard with a vacum cleaner.
AND it's about 95 deg here every day and WE HAVE NO AIR CONDITIONING ON THE TECH SIDE OF THE BUILDING! for four friggin months it's been busted but they are too friggin busy  screwing with our team by changing our coach to deal with that, i walked outside the other day and looked at the customer service side of the building and their windows were covered with condensation because of how cold it is in there... the mother trucking good for frigging nothing incompetant sniveling bastards that we call management down there need to be fired...in short, i think i need a new job...
sorry for being so hostile i promise the next post will be nicer.
 
 
 
quote of the day:
matt: "are you SURE this is how you want it?, because you have about 25 seconds to decide..."
(p.s. you had to be there)
 
 
song:" razor flower" by freak kitchen
 
 
 

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